Life is messy and beautiful and thrilling and painful.
I live life wide ass open.and as they say - I do not want to go quietly and gracefully through life - I want to give it hell and wear it out and when it's all said and done, I want to slide into the grave like I'm stealing home. I am a little broken.Īnyone who can live to be 41 and not feel like they would be better suited on sale in the "scratch and dent" section, rather than brand new.well, I suppose they must not have lived that much. I am confident and happy and fearless.Īnd like most everyone else I know. I am an extraordinarily out going person. That's always been something I would hesitate to say -OR not think I earned the right to say it -OR not think I deserved to say. and there I go again.more tears!!! Sorry - can't seem to help it. There they are again - those three words. It's not only possible, but probable- "do able" if you will.and. I can change my body, completely change it. I will see the list differently now as I have proved that one thing I never thought possible, that I have fought myself over all my life- ALL MY LIFE - is completely possible. I think I'm going to give them some serious thought, make a list and get after it.blogging about it all along the way !!! but haven't thought possible? I can think of several things, I'm sure you can too. What else have I always wanted in my life. How can you do everything I mentioned above, and in thirty days- ONE MONTH - completely redefine what you are capable of.completely dominate what has alluded you and tormented you for your entire life. When I tell myself I can do something, and then I believe me. When I prepare, manage my time, and execute. When I set goals, plan the work, and work the plan. When I get right down to business, prioritize myself and treat myself with the same respect and love as I give those around me. I now know what I can accomplish when I put my mind to it. I am truly shocked, and almost afraid of, what I now know. No test is really that hard when you know the answers. It's like I studied harder than I ever have for a test that I was terrified to take- but was so mentally prepared that the test wasn't anything I couldn't handle. I am shocked that it was the hardest thing I have ever done.
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I am shocked that it took my forty one years to learn how to do it. I am shocked at what I have done in thirty days. When I give myself my word and then let NO ONE and NOTHING get in the way of me keeping that promise to myself. I am emotional because It didn't even occur to me until today how deeply it would effect me to realize how powerful I can be when I honor myself. It isn't about the weight loss, or the new body, or all the fun blogging or all the friends I've made during this crazy, painful, challenging and rewarding month. Now I can't keep the tears from running down my face.Īnd the funny thing about it is.I had no idea I would be this emotional about it. I cannot believe I am about to say this, but.
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